Living in the Open 💚🌈
wise & beautiful friend/peer told me yesterday, I'm no longer living in the
closet, I'm living in the open and with that comes all my vulnerability and
truth. I hope that sharing my vulnerability with you might help someone who
needs to hear it today. There are moments when I realize I need a breather...
I'm done. My brain is overwhelmed, my emotions are frazzled. I can feel that
old prickly uprising of fight or flight kicking in. Before, not too long
ago, I couldn't manage those triggers and I would cave to the stress. But now
I've learned to pause, breathe. Take a beat and get out of my head. Go for a
walk, put my headphones in and become lost in a world where it's only the sound
of my sneakers hitting the pavement and the cords of melody streaming through
my mind. I can relax. My soul is rejuvenated, my mind unwinds, I can stop the
fight or flight before it happens. Something uplifting always greets me
on my daily walks. It doesn't have to be momentous; I'm easily amused 😉
but it does recharge my energy and puts me in a place where I can sort out my
issue. Let go of control, it is what it is. Take that beat. Breathe.
Lately my trigger has been school.
Going back to full time education after 20 plus years... learning Kinesiology
in only a few months. It's been a huge fear of mine to become a medical
practitioner, even though it's been one of my heart's greatest desires
throughout my life. To help people. To nurture. To heal. I'm doing it! But not
without learning to take that pause and recharge my emotions. Yesterday was one
of those moments for me, and one fortuitous event occurred and a couple cool
things! One: I stumbled across a restaurant that was hiring and my daughter
applied and got the job! Two: I talked to the nicest guy and his adorable dog.
Three: I crossed paths with this giant ass skeleton that totally made my
October night!!! I've learned not to control the situation but to control my
emotions. Not an easy task to master and admittedly, I'm still learning. I'm
not a novice, but I'm definitely no master. I fall somewhere in the middle. I'm
getting there ☝️👟👟
No going back, no regrets!
Much love! 🌈💚🌈